Things happen in our lives that make living that much harder. Some of those hard things leave us alone after days or sometimes even hours if we're lucky. Unfortunately, sometimes, those hard things and heavy feelings stay for weeks, months, years. Sometimes, even when we think they're gone, they come right back in an instant. That's what I had happen today.

             I was having a wonderful day. The sun was out, I was surrounded by friends, and one little story brought back feelings that made me sick to my stomach. I could feel the pain in my chest and felt like I was going to be sick. I came back to my room without saying a word and felt like I was going to burst out in tears. Instead, I sat down and talked. A few minutes passed and I still felt sick and like I had the heaviest heart in the world. God hadn't helped me yet, and it was killing me. All of a sudden, someone knocked on my door. A friend who didn't know that I was having a rough time decided to come see if i wanted to go get food with him and watch tv. On any other day, I would have taken that for granted. Today, I took it as an answer. As soon as I was out of my room, I started feeling better.

               I'm not saying that all of a sudden, if the memory is brought up again that it doesn't phase me. It still hurts. But what I've learnt is that I have my friend who, although they can't fix it, help a lot. And guess who sends friends? I don't think I need to tell you ;) .

              Moral of this story; things will suck. There will be hard times. Your heart will be heavy. But if you ask God for help, he will do the best he can to send you all the love and care in the world. He wants you to be happy! I think that's pretty amazing :)

"Dear God, please set my heart free so that I can one day be happy again. And please help me forget the things I can not change for it weighs heavy on my heart."